I am back!

Hello I am back... It has been months since I last posted. Kind of miss my blog. Well it is always nice to seek refuge here... ha ha..

Life has been so hectic lately. Work has been very busy and home too.. 2 kids are really a handful for me.. how I wish now I could fly to a place for relaxation , just me and hubby..ke ke ke...

Though busy, but good friends and people whom I love are always in my heart. My friends and family are so important to me...:). I guess I am not stingy on saying mushy words to my friends and family becos we never know if we got a chance to say what we want tommorrow.

Jayden and Ferlin have grown so much.. Jayden now says ma ma and pa pa superbly well Ferlin is now with St Francis Assisi Church at N2 level. She enjoys school and I am glad she is taking things well.

Just a short update, will be back real soon.

What Averlyn Means

You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic “Type A” personality. You are very hyper. You never slow down, even when it's killing you. You're the type of person who can be a workaholic during the day... and still have the energy to party all night. Your energy is definitely a magnet for those around you. People are addicted to your vibe. You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone. You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together. At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together. You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something. You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense. You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun. You are relaxed, chill, and very likely to go with the flow. You are light hearted and accepting. You don't get worked up easily. Well adjusted and incredibly happy, many people wonder what your secret to life is. You are a free spirit, and you resent anyone who tries to fence you in. You are unpredictable, adventurous, and always a little surprising. You may miss out by not settling down, but you're too busy having fun to care. You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people. You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts. You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

My thoughts on a quiet and peaceful night...

I am back... Was chatting with Angeline on MSN just now... missed seeing Jayce and Ser on MSN.. where are u girls??? Ke ke ke. Of cos also not forgetting buddy Vlora as well.. missed our daily chatting and the days when we were working together.

Life have been pretty busy for me lately. Its work, then head home most of the days. On weekends time are spent with the kids. Sometimes, it feels so good slowing down a bit and doing some reflection in life. In the past, I try to always put others before myself, and sometimes I feel that I dont treat myself equally well. I began to feel sad and unhappy about life. At times I will ponder and think if this is what I really want in my life.

Friends who are true to me told me my weaknesses, and I truly acknowledge that and accepted it, because they want the best for me. Thanks buddies...you know who you are...

I guess all human being have weaknesses, they are vulnerable by nature.. but one must know what they want in life in order to persevere and achieve the best out of life. Dont be too mindful of how or where you stand in people's eyes, u need not please everybody and as long as your conscience is clear, you owe noone an explanation. I am happy to say that for the past 32 years, I have always readily help others and have never done anything wrong to hurt anybody. But If I have hurt anyone, that is definitely unintentionally. I have always believe in Karma.

I know for the days to come, I will want to stay happy everyday and not let anything put me down. For myself. family & kids, I promised myself I will be a happier person from now on and be contented with what I have in life. Jia You!!

All Soul's Day-Nov 2

Today is All Soul's Day-Nov 2. A day for us to pray for mum and commemorate her departure. There will be a special prayer held at the columbarium at 6.30 pm. 2 years and 9 mths, away she is from us...

All Souls' Day offers an opportunity for Catholics to commemorate the faithful departed. They remember and pray for the souls of people who are in Purgatory - the place in which those who have died atone for their less grave sins before being granted the vision of God in Heaven. Reasoning behind this stems from the notion that when a soul leaves the body, it is not entirely cleansed from venial (minor) sins. However, through the power of prayer the faithful left on earth may be able to help these souls gain the Beatific Vision they seek, bringing the soul eternal happiness. For the souls in purgatory, waiting for eternal happiness and for meeting the Beloved is a source of suffering, because of the punishment due to sin which separates them from God. Once the time of purification is over, the souls will go to meet the One it desires.

A day at Sentosa

Yesterday, Ferlin's school had an excursion to Sentosa to visit the dolphin lagoon and Underwater World. Ferlin was still coughing quite badly since last week. Brought her to see a doctor on Thurs and was on medication.

Daddy was able to join us and we reached the school at 9am and boarded the bus to Sentosa. Reached Sentosa at abt 10.30 and roam a while at Palawan Beach taking photos. The sun was scorching hot. At 11am, the dolphin show started, it was rather amazing seeing the pink dophins responding to the trainers as they swirl and twirl balls and dance in water-Clap Clap... Ferlin enjoys herself.

Thereafter, we headed for lunch and then proceed to the underwater world. As this was our first time there, quite an eye opener as the fishes are SO BIG!!! wow.. I have always like the sea, able to see those fishes swarming around you... not too bad leh.. ke ke ke.. ferlin kept running around excitedly as the conveyor belt brought us around.. we repeated 3 full rounds.. ha ha.. overall, quite an enjoyable trip. However, on the way home, Ferlin vomitted in the bus.. poor she..

Goodbye Peppy...

My dad’s dog was sick last week. My dad brought him to see a vet and was told his liver was swollen. Prescibed him some medication and he seems to be on the road to recovery over the weekend. My dad’s birthday was on 20 October, we had a birthday celebration dinner for him on Sat night. He don’t look so smiley, maybe he is upset about his dog being sick. He kept talking about his Peppy being sick etc, can sense his love for peppy was very strong and that they had each other for the past 8 years.

I received a call from James yesterday to say that Peppy was sent to the Vet again on Mon as his condition seems to be deteriorating. He was suspected of having liver cancer. He is 10 years old. Vet suggested putting him to sleep, as by now he has grown too weak. His eyes are failing him and he could not eat nor walk properly, skinny till bones are shown. But my dad was not prepared to see him go. Today, James called me to say they have decided to put him to sleep, he is suffering too much by now and they could not bear to see him suffer anymore. Peppy just lay there sleeping with his eyes closed.

I called my dad this morning, he was crying on the other end, I can’t hold back my tears too…although Peppy is not staying under the same roof with me, however, I never fails to play with him when I am at my brother’s house. I feel so much for him. I can understand the lost my dad will have to go through. But I guess we will have to grit our teeth and let him go to end his sufferings, and keep the memories in our heart.

Goodbye Peppy. We will all miss you.

My PC!!! :(

Today is an unlucky day for me.As office PC got hang very often, requested IT guy to do some check on it. He suggested transporting some data from C drive to D drive to minimise space. Upon checking he found out that D drive needs formating in order for the transfer to be done, hence formated my D drive. Guess what, all my data in C drive went missing while D drive contains no important data which he claimed he had transfered.

OMG!!!! He trial and error from 2-5+ pm and my work was all stuck!!..Didnt he do any back up before initating transfer of files etc. Doesnt he knows best? Wa, questions started to fly and I was like fuming mad. I have so many important documents.. my email personal folders, my legal letters, my reports.. OMG!!! If not recoverable then what will becomes of me.. sure die!! Eventually my boss brought me to see his boss, only solution was to purhcase a recover deleted items application in order for my files to be recovered. Which means my claim against him that he has deleted my folders were not unfounded.. yet he remains adament that he did not delete any of my folders, merely transport some files from C to D drive, so in short does it means the files got lost on its way to it's new home - D drive?? I hope I will have good news tommorrow, else si de heng can...

Sad day

Was packing my mum's clothes today. They were seating in the storeroom for 2.5 years...,began clearing them to be sold to karung guni.. upon touching them, teardrops keep falling... pain was excruciating... this forum turns out to be a good avenue for me to express myself.. keeping to myself can be so tormenting...really...I kept all the clothes which she had always love and wearing them. I dont know why, I just miss her terribly much... really...

I regreted my actions..there was once I scolded her for being petty, she complained to me abt Ah Yu's rudeness, but I told her not be be so petty, I have wronged her.. I realised..sorry mum..I should not have concluded something which I am not certain about... sorry...

Pat's ROM

Attended Pat's ROM on 29 Sept 08. Beautiful bride isnt she... Wishing her a blissful marriage with Justin. :)

Ferlin

Yesterday was rather upset about Ferlin. She has been disobedient lately and are always throwing tantrums. I guess I will have to put in my effots in taming her, else I cannot imagine what will she be like when she grows up? She always wants her way!! Most of the shopping trips will end up on the floor crying becos she failed to get a toy she likes etc etc.. sometimes, managing her can be so tiring. At times kids put a strain on our "relationship". We tend to argue more. A lot more work to be done to ensure she do not get out of hand and also to strengthen our "relationship". Ok, going back to work..

Udpates-Hui's Birthday Celebration

Yesterday celebrated Hui's birthday at KTV followed by supper, slept at 3.30 am and now like zombie.. wondered hui and ser got energy to work today?? OMG!! It was a fun nite.. waiting Hui to post pixs ya.... ha ha ha , pls dont post the ugly ones hor.. ha ha ha ha!

Was in KL over the last weekend, it was an enjoyable and fruitful trip. Stayed in Coronade Hotel along Bt Bintang for 2 days and drive down to Port Dickson to stay in Legends water chalet as well. Hubby do not like KL as shopping are mostly in our itinery, he liked beaches and relaxing spots the best... for me, I cant really shop with 2 kids in tow. Hence my buy is limited to a shoe, a dress, disappointed of my buy....

Ferlin fusses a lot during the entire trip. Poor kids vomited, could be due to the long journey. Ferlin went to the doctor in KL as she was running a fever and could not eat well. Didi was generally ok, did not really fuss and was rather easy to handle. Thank God! I wished I had more time for my kids, I treasured the 3 days with them very much. Shall plan more of this short getaways more often, real bonding time with them, away from stress and hassle of life here.. even for a short 3 days, it rejuvenates my mind and soul...

I can feel her presence

Today is the last day of 7th month.. during the entire mth, I could feel my dearest mummy around me... I dreamt of her more often, I can see moth in my house etc etc.. I can sense she is around me constantly giving me her blessing. I missed her terribly much, but the thought of her in eternal life consoled me a little..she might not be here physically but in my heart there's always a room for her. 2 years and 7 mths, she had left us for another world, times flies, there was not a day which passes without missing her. The thought of never being able to see her again in my entire life frightens me a lot.. saddens me as well. But there was nothing I could do to bring her back, absolutely nothing. Somtimes, knowingly that thinking of her brings me sadness, I chose not to think and stay happy. Deep down, my heart has healed but I could still feel the pain each time I reminiscence the happier times together which we have shared in our house in Yishun. Nobody except mummy would have done so much for me, but god chose to take her away when I am all ready to give her a better life. "WHY"??? this questions still pops up sometimes.. no answer to it.. guess it is all FATED. If I have a choice, I want to be her daughter again next life.

Above is a pix of us in happier times. I might have lost her to a terrifying illness but in my heart, I salute her as she fought the battle thoroughly.. without giving up till the last moment of her breathe. I admire her courage, she is such a strong and amazing woman...I love you always mummy, will never forget what you have done for me..

Let eternal life grant onto you
Let perpetual lght shine on you
May you rest in peace.

Love always-Ah Gal

Ah Yu's birthday celebration at Swensen...

Jie Jie & Di Di hand in hand